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667641 charliedontsurf : You read too much Camus
667642 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : lol like people having to get sick or die or other shit or anybody feeling sore and sad
667643 charliedontsurf : Everything is a tragedy? Why is that?
667644 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : loool i have never but i should, i dont like whiners tho lol lol
667645 charliedontsurf : If we're really as insignificant as your type suggest, than nothing would be tragic, not everything
667646 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : just by softness of character. different people can take different things, some can take none
667647 bob : the world is full of whiners
667648 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : hmm thats a bright thought
667649 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : exactly that is why
667650 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : lol bob
667651 bob : the 'its everyone's fault but mine' crowd
667652 charliedontsurf : I think it has something to do with accepting reality, and not trying to make the world an unrealistic Utopia
667653 charliedontsurf : change what you can, accept what you can't and make the best of it
667654 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : but it worked that way: everything in life did lose its value except for a real close conncetion. as for people, i started to feel extra sorry for them and also for animals and even things
667655 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yes, that is the sanest way
667656 charliedontsurf : I'm gonna let you off the hook for being the Savior of Mankind, Olga, don't worrry, no cross needed
667658 charliedontsurf : Most people feel for people and animals....but to ask why there has to be pain and death seems childish
667659 charliedontsurf : If you are religious, assume your God has things under control and stop being a martyr for every situation
667660 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yeah going to assume that and the eternal souls and everything
667661 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : sould for people, animals and things
667662 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : especially for artworks
667663 charliedontsurf : If you're not religious.....work on yourself, try to put yourself in the best possible situation possible according to your strenghts and needs, and stop bringing yourself down because a dog is being mistreated in Pakistan
667664 charliedontsurf : The universe is uncaring and ambivalent......carve your niche, be realistic, try to make a change but don't get down for things outside of your control......what's the point?
667665 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : a year ago i threw a painting that ruslan and i did together down the balcony, i meant to take it back but it was taken away by the cleaning lady, then we watched in the litter but havent found it. Each day of the year i was sure i commited murder
667666 charliedontsurf : Who do you think you are?
667667 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : Yes exactly, im trying to be God
667668 charliedontsurf : You need meds, Olga
667669 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : Charlie you are very sane
667670 charliedontsurf : Right....and you'll lose that one
667673 charliedontsurf : work on Olga being the best woman she can be...and don't get bogged down with the minutiae
667675 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : <3 thank you, I will
667676 charliedontsurf : I doubt it
667677 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : nah im full of determination
667678 charliedontsurf : It's easy to say on paper, hard to implement, you've got a lifetime of thinking this way
667679 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : Ive been studying hard lately and it boosts my self esteem
667680 charliedontsurf : You need to realize your thoughts are not only damaging, but not based in reality
667681 charliedontsurf : That's good Olga
667682 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yeah they are indeed
667683 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : see, speaking with a sane and insightful person like you helped
667684 charliedontsurf : This bf of yours....is this the guy in the pic you showed me a few months ago?
667685 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : i speak to none but my pupils and ruslan
667686 charliedontsurf : I think I'm being trolled by a lunatic, but it's fun haha
667687 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yes thats him
667689 charliedontsurf : Why don't you have friends?
667690 charliedontsurf : Why are you limiting your exposure to people to pupils and a bf that you think doesn't consider you an equal?
667691 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : well i know a bright baptist girl in town, her company is too nice for me though, i mean her friends by "company", i think she is the only one who likes me because she has seen me being very sincere and deep thinking
667692 charliedontsurf : That's part of your problem I think....keeping a very small and closed group to interact with...no new ideas or experiences come from that
667693 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : but then i am in doubt of whether to dive into her world or no
667694 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yes all you say makes sense
667695 charliedontsurf : Don't dive into her world to make a friend...and don't convert to another religion to keep a friend, that's insane
667696 charliedontsurf : You need to trust yourself more and be kind to yourself more and not try to be a bright, shiny object to others
667697 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : well for starters im a schizoid psychopath, i need as calm a person to interact with, plus an intelligent one (altho im a zero interlocutor myself and not an erudite, i dont enjoy idiots), and a definitely not a superfluous one
667698 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yes that also makes sense, Jon
667699 charliedontsurf : If you're a good person, it will show...and naturally...not be a fraudulent sideshow for attention or acceptance
667700 charliedontsurf : Why thx Olga lol
667702 charliedontsurf : lol OK Olga.....enough with the shop talk, no one will understand what the hell you're saying
667703 charliedontsurf : Are you belittling yourself again by calling yourself a schizoid psychopath, or have you actually been diagnosed?
667704 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : i have been, not on paper though (bc doc didnt want to "spoil my life", as they said)
667705 charliedontsurf : And there are lots of calm, bright guys out there that value you as an equal
667706 charliedontsurf : You're spoiling your life just fine on your own by being so unrealistic about yourself
667707 charliedontsurf : Relax...and if you need some meds, use them, no shame in that
667708 charliedontsurf : You see only your supposed negative traits and haven't mentioned a single positive trait, are you aware of that?
667709 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yeah like that argentinean friend said, i eliminate friends. It was insightful of him, bc even now, thinking that a close contact is the most valuable thing in the world, I'm not ready to do sth to maintain a friendship, Ruslan has been the only exception for all my life and thats why i can not let it go
667710 charliedontsurf : beyond I feel for people and animals which is fairly universal
667711 charliedontsurf : Correction: You WILL NOT let it go
667712 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : haha well on a positive side I am honest with myself most of times, and when im not I mostly see it anyway
667713 charliedontsurf : and I'm not saying you should, only you can determine that
667714 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : yeah'
667715 charliedontsurf : being honest with yourself is a survival strategy, not really a positive trait per se
667716 charliedontsurf : What do you like about yourself? And be realistic
667717 charliedontsurf : We really should be doing this in pv lol
667719 charliedontsurf : Bob, make more popcorn, and add butter, not margarine
667720 charliedontsurf : The body has difficulty breaking down margarine, it's like wax
667721 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : I like (but also hate) the sincere disposition, i will not say one thing and think another or degrade you in my thoughts
667722 charliedontsurf : You keep mention ego defense systems...I wonder why?
667723 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : do you cook, charlie?
667724 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : hmm really
667725 charliedontsurf : Yes, I enjoy it
667726 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : let's see
667727 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : do you cook daily?
667728 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : what are the traits you like in yourself?
667730 charliedontsurf : Hey, I'm not fascinated with suicide and being a Savior
667731 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : I also got rid of most introjects i hold it as a pride lol
667732 charliedontsurf : I don't cook daily, but often enough
667733 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : well not "most" but many
667734 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : lmao Jon
667735 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : whats your favourite dish to cook?
667736 charliedontsurf : it sounds like you care more about what bf thinks of you than what you think of yourself. Is that fair or realistic?
667737 charliedontsurf : And does he do the same for you? I doubt it
667738 charliedontsurf : I like bucatini alla amatriciana
667739 sonvzvezdnuyunoc : actually thats true. I also envy his position in a unicersity, thats very shallow. Well I guess I'm proud of being smarter than many russians lol
667740 charliedontsurf : But it takes awhile to prep and cook down
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