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1840362 charliedontsurf : Yeah, men are pigs haha
1840363 MagnifiCat : I can't drink at all, I'm taking 7 tablets a day
1840364 MagnifiCat : no way I can drink
1840366 charliedontsurf : You shouldn't. I mean them.
1840367 MagnifiCat : I'm not stupid, I'm sick
1840368 MagnifiCat : it's a big difference
1840369 charliedontsurf : Stop saying you're sick, Magpie
1840371 MagnifiCat : if I'm not sick why am I taking 7 tablets
1840372 MagnifiCat : bloody thinks
1840375 MagnifiCat : I used to take only one or two eskazine's a day
1840376 MagnifiCat : 10 years ago
1840377 MagnifiCat : and it was fine
1840378 charliedontsurf : Even if you believe it, constantly reinforcing that in your head is not healthy. Tell yourself you have issues that you're working on, not that you're sick. When you tell yourself that repeatedly, it becomes reality
1840379 MagnifiCat : I could have a normal life
1840380 MagnifiCat : now taking 7 shitty things and I can't go to work
1840381 charliedontsurf : Certainly you've been diagnosed. What do they say?
1840382 MagnifiCat : I'm paranoid schizofrenic,
1840383 MagnifiCat : so I take two types of anti psychotics
1840384 charliedontsurf : You've been told that more than once by more than one psychiatrist?
1840385 MagnifiCat : and for anxiety I take anti depression and anti anxiety tablets
1840387 MagnifiCat : I've been diagnosed in the uk first
1840388 MagnifiCat : then we moved
1840389 MagnifiCat : and in the uk, I didn't want to take tablets
1840390 charliedontsurf : OK, I don't think you've ever told me that before as a diagnosis
1840391 MagnifiCat : so they just let me go from the psychiatric hospital
1840392 MagnifiCat : they we moved to spain
1840393 MagnifiCat : and I've had another psychotic episode
1840394 MagnifiCat : ambulance knocked me out and took me to hospital
1840395 MagnifiCat : I was violent
1840396 MagnifiCat : so they had to do something
1840398 MagnifiCat : and in the hospital the doctors told me I have to take medication
1840399 MagnifiCat : and they wouldn't leave me until I took them
1840400 charliedontsurf : Yes, stay on your meds
1840401 MagnifiCat : so the system works differently in spain
1840402 MagnifiCat : and I've been on meds for 17 years not
1840404 MagnifiCat : and I think no canabis, right?
1840405 MagnifiCat : that would just fuck my brain
1840406 charliedontsurf : Do you have the occasional feeling people are looking at you funny or talking behind your back, that sort of thing?
1840407 MagnifiCat : Not at the moment, I'm not paranoid at the moment, beacause I take the meds
1840408 charliedontsurf : Then don't get off the meds. That can be an awful feeling, as you know
1840409 MagnifiCat : oh yeah, awful
1840410 MagnifiCat : sick and violent and seeing things and smelling things that are unreal
1840411 charliedontsurf : Completely ridiculous from an outsider's view, but to the person that suffers from it, a living hell
1840413 charliedontsurf : You don't know who you can confide in blah blah
1840417 MagnifiCat : do you know the drug, eskazine?
1840419 charliedontsurf : I've heard of it, but remember, I never dealt with drugs much because it wasn't my profession. A psychiatrist goes through more specific training and school, and subsequently bring home a bigger paycheck
1840421 MagnifiCat : is eskazine an anti psychotic drug?
1840422 MagnifiCat : or maybe you don't know
1840423 charliedontsurf : I never had a desire to prescribe drugs to people, and besides, I paid for school myself and I was burned out
1840424 MagnifiCat : ok I see
1840425 MagnifiCat : no worries
1840426 charliedontsurf : I think it's an anti-pychotic used for schizophrenia
1840427 MagnifiCat : because that was a good drug for me
1840428 MagnifiCat : I could live a happy life with tht
1840429 charliedontsurf : and then there is schizo-affective disorder
1840431 MagnifiCat : no no
1840432 MagnifiCat : I'm paranoid schizofrenic
1840433 charliedontsurf : Are you taking it now?
1840434 MagnifiCat : no schizo affective disorder
1840435 MagnifiCat : Well, I'm not taking eskazine now
1840436 charliedontsurf : Why not?
1840437 MagnifiCat : I used to take it 10 years ago
1840438 charliedontsurf : If it worked for you?
1840439 MagnifiCat : I'm taking other tablets
1840441 MagnifiCat : eskazine was prescribed to me when I lived in the Emirates
1840442 charliedontsurf : That you don't feel are as effective,right?
1840443 MagnifiCat : then we moved back to spain
1840444 MagnifiCat : and I have had a psychotic episode
1840445 charliedontsurf : I'm sure Spain has it too lol
1840446 MagnifiCat : so they gave me other tablets
1840447 charliedontsurf : That you don't like as well
1840448 MagnifiCat : so the tablets I'm on now, causing me to sleep too much
1840449 MagnifiCat : hiper sleep or something they call it
1840450 MagnifiCat : I sleep 12 hours a day
1840451 MagnifiCat : sometimes more
1840452 charliedontsurf : Since seeing someone in Spain, have you mentioned that you liked the other drug?
1840453 MagnifiCat : No not yet
1840454 MagnifiCat : when they changed the tablets I was very sick
1840455 MagnifiCat : I was happy to take anything
1840456 charliedontsurf : Well, that might be something you want to mention next time haha
1840457 MagnifiCat : that made me feel better
1840460 charliedontsurf : The most they can say is no no, not going there
1840461 MagnifiCat : so it's my sleep
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