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1135319 BillMcneal : suicidal ideation takes the weirdest forms,
1135320 BillMcneal : i'm not even 100% sure i don't have it
1135321 mrjynxter : aww i'd looove to take up reincarnation belief, it's beautiful :P
1135322 mrjynxter : we're lagging
1135323 mrjynxter : butterfly hahaha
1135325 mrjynxter : what worried me the most about death is a loss of consciousness i guess
1135326 BillMcneal : so how did you lose the fear?
1135327 BillMcneal : you lose your consciousness when you sleep anyway haha that's why it's never bothered me
1135328 mrjynxter : idk it just faded, it used to be quite extreme (why do you think i was reading all that fromm and whatnot xd) and constant - no distraction-like. Now ..idk
1135329 mrjynxter : hahah thats why sleep and fainting always bothered me xd
1135330 mrjynxter : you never had a fear of death?
1135331 mrjynxter : alien!
1135334 BillMcneal : i was obsessed with death in my own way, only... i don't know
1135335 BillMcneal : remember how i wanted to be a coroner when i was a kid?
1135336 BillMcneal : and a teen maybe
1135337 mrjynxter : aww haha well thats an interesting profession :P
1135338 BillMcneal : i would research autopsies and all that stuff, seeing dead people is weird, but then i wasn't interested in the dead, only in how weird it all felt
1135339 BillMcneal : hahaha yesss
1135340 BillMcneal : but it wasn't for me
1135341 mrjynxter : hmm can you explain weird a little
1135342 BillMcneal : there's nothing truly strange about the dead; they're just flesh and bones that will rot away, nothing you haven't seen before, like preparing a chicken for food
1135343 BillMcneal : but where do you see the dead? in morgues, what are morgues like? like nothing you've seen before, it's all metallic and shiny, the tables are tall and narrow, the legs are thin and tall
1135344 BillMcneal : so you get this weird, particular feeling, that you associate with the dead, but in reality, it all comes from all those weird, little details
1135345 BillMcneal : the dead and their poses, just strange poses, in the end i realized i didn't care about the dead, but about how different we can feel when things are different
1135346 BillMcneal : that's why i visit the cemetery so merrily
1135347 mrjynxter : hmm thats very interesting and so removed
1135348 BillMcneal : once you understand this, you can feel great things in the strangest ways, hidden things, not sickening ones
1135349 BillMcneal : i know haha
1135350 mrjynxter : i wonder why youre fascinated with the details though
1135351 BillMcneal : because they're what decide how you feel
1135353 BillMcneal : you just associate things to these feelings, but the associations are whatever
1135354 BillMcneal : in the cemetery... there are these underground galleries, there are many
1135355 BillMcneal : but there are ones that are circular, it doesn't matter, all that matters is that a pair of them are interconnected through a tunnel
1135356 BillMcneal : this is all dimly illuminated, or i should say very dark
1135357 BillMcneal : i remember entering that tunnel one day, crossing it, and finding myself in this room right in the middle
1135358 mrjynxter : i mean .. i wanted to ask about this particular feeling, i guess it's just inconveyable after all
1135359 BillMcneal : there were some carts for moving coffins around, and their shapes, their positions, everything, it was all so strange, almost surreal
1135361 BillMcneal : it is, but you can go find it yourself :P
1135362 BillMcneal : i want to show you a picture
1135363 Travis : Don't you nutjobs have a curfew?
1135364 BillMcneal : that i had to take haha
1135365 mrjynxter : do please
1135366 mrjynxter : no jon lol hi long time
1135367 Travis : define "long" lol
1135368 Travis : 48 hours?
1135370 Travis : oh come on, you exaggerate
1135371 Travis : Lulu is she insane?
1135372 BillMcneal : «coughs in travis' direction»
1135373 Travis : I'm immune to normal terrestrial infection my friend
1135374 mrjynxter : :D
1135376 BillMcneal : check the email olga
1135377 Travis : Just hurt my feelings and I'll go away
1135378 BillMcneal : look at that entrance, i was circling around the gallery, it looks a lot brighter in the picture
1135379 Travis : Dick pics are so 1980's
1135380 BillMcneal : then all of a sudden i come across that strange little hole in the wall
1135381 mrjynxter : oh this aisle looks so lovely
1135383 BillMcneal : so neat and "undefined"
1135384 Travis : So, is this a formal courtship, an e-tryst?
1135385 BillMcneal : it's like it invites you in
1135386 Travis : Look me hook up my cameras
1135387 Travis : Let*
1135389 mrjynxter : is that the pass that joins two tunnels
1135390 Travis : Don't show us your wormhole please
1135391 BillMcneal : yes, exactly
1135392 mrjynxter : yes and you wrote about it in one of the chapters
1135393 BillMcneal : the thing is, you're walking there, it's totally quiet, not a noise, this is underground so the air doesn't move at all
1135395 Travis : Norah must be banging her Ramadan drum, so tedious that one lol
1135396 BillMcneal : i'll send you pictures of the one i talked there tomorrow :P
1135397 mrjynxter : im glad you showed this pic, bc i imagined it all beton and dump and whatnot
1135398 mrjynxter : ok :*
1135399 mrjynxter : lol jon
1135400 Travis : whatnot = bigtime hillbilly, Olga
1135401 mrjynxter : yes i can just imagine this atmosphere, i wish i could compare it to the "real" one aaaand also sneak into your mind and feel that one too
1135402 BillMcneal : oh it is all dump and whatnot, depends on the gallery haha
1135403 BillMcneal : my god, i miss the cemetery so much
1135405 Travis : You too sound stranger by the minute lol
1135406 BillMcneal : if being strange is a sin, then take me to hades, virgil (?)
1135407 Travis : obscure nerd reference no. 97
1135408 Travis : a penny for your eyes
1135409 BillMcneal : divine comedy
1135410 BillMcneal : ah ok
1135412 BillMcneal : don't any of the nutjobs you deal with like the cemetery?
1135413 BillMcneal : what are they, amateurs?
1135414 Travis : My niece does
1135416 BillMcneal : oh boy
1135418 Travis : She has always been fascinated by tombstones and so-called ghosts lol
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